the entire day was cold. its already 3.45 pm and im still chilling indoors. the morning temp was -3 deg and now it reads 0 deg. brrrrr. i was feeling a little low this morning, having my second day isnt much great and yet i still have to wake up at 6 for work. half awake, i went to the bathroom and had my morning stuffs. out to work at 7.10 and darn it, i was freezing cold. i cant see anything around me. so blurry with fog. i hate this! but then, what can i do?hahaha. goooooo. its thursday already and the week will end soon. so work work work. i arrived at work talking to my babe, chitchatting and finally off to start the day right. i hope so!
the day started out fine until i got a surprising message. :o i wasn't expecting that. :( my babe told me he's going home for a week. i felt sad. so sad that ive been so transparent to him. i said its all fine. because he's already decided that he's goin home if he gets cheap fare. what else can i do, right. its like he's goin home whether i like it or not. and that makes me a little upset.
honestly i wasnt mad at you babe. i was just surprised. there's no problem really. i guess ill just miss you. it would be a little different when you're there. we wont be talking much like we use to do everyday, we wont be seeing each other like we do everyday. i know its just one week but for the first time, i guess its long enough for us. that was the real reason why i was sad the whole day. i dont wanna let you know. thats why i always say its alright and nothing is wrong. i dont wanna let you know because its really nothing, but i cant help it. i felt like crying when u told me that this morning. but hey, i dont wanna stop you. do whatever will make you happy and satisfied. :) if you think you really wanna go or you really need to, just go ahead. dont mind me. there wont be any problem with me. there's only one thing i wanted to let you know: IM SURE IM GONNA MISS YOU LIKE HELL. :(
no problem babe. im sorry that i have to tell you this. i wanted to keep it to myself. but i cant go on everyday like this, being sad inside and keeping it just to myself. i hope you understand why i feel this way. i just love you. thats it. that simple. :/
just enjoy. i know u needed that too. im sorry if i feel this way. just keep in mind how much i love you.
btw, thank you for the new recipe you've just cooked for me. it looks yummy and i bet it tastes better. i wish i could taste it. i appreciate all your efforts. thanks a lot. from the bottom of my heart. :)
i love you babe! goodnight for now. see you in my dreams. xoxo.
ciao,
lottie <3 pedz
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