today wasn't a nice day for both of us. it has been a stressful and tiring day. ive been so mad but yeah, in the end of it all, we still compromised to settle everything clear. i know these situations are just trials, to make us stronger, to make our relationship tougher. we cant please everybody, that's what they say. and we can't tell everyone to like us, to accept us nor to acknowledge our existence. some people get envious, others get mad with the people around them, they do actions just to break others' happiness, just to barge in on others' happy relationships. some just wanted others' lives miserable. just because they are bitter with their lives.
i admit i was mad to hell last night, till this morning. and i wasn't able to reason out fine with what happened just because i was mad. i was cool at first, but i ruined my own reasoning just because the tension got heavier and higher. i never listened. i never cared. all i wanted was to shout and yell and shoo you away. to hell, to anywhere, just far away from me. i never had the chance to balance everything because i was real mad. and i am sorry about that. madness was my initial reaction. i threw you words i couldn't believe i could say to someone like you. i yelled at you like you were a monster. and again i am sorry about that. i thank God, He let me listen to Ate, giving words of wisdom getting to the inner part of my mind, to the inner part of my heart. until i was reasoning right and balance the situation, contemplating each angle. and i was sorry to hear all those words. i know both of us were at our lowest points. yet, in the end, we still won. we still tried to get back on the right track, to pick up the broken pieces, to settle back on the right place.
im sorry babe for being cruel. i know i was. and thank you for staying where you were. for waiting for me to get back to you. for being strong for US when i was so low. THANK YOU for the love. LOVE binds us together, keeps us together and will keep us together until forever. im sorry. I LOVE YOU.
with your problem on the burned kitchen cabinets, im sorry for that. it was an accident ;) so lets just be extra careful the next time around. ;) anyway, i hope u can settle it soon. im here to help, just here beside you, kahit taga abot lang ng tools. :D hihi. pwede din tagapukpok. at tagapintura. :D babe, i love you so much. remember that.
another day of trials has passed. and im happy that we are still together at this very moment, surpassed everything, learned our mistakes (so much lessons learned) and realized our actions, good and bad. there are still a lot of trials coming our way. i just hope we could handle everything. surpass everything to make us stronger and tougher on every trial. basta andyan ka lang babe, at di mo ko iiwan. im sorry. and i love you so much. <3
with so much love,
lottie <3 pedz
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